Selfish Fear

One of my least favorite words: Fear.

As I’ve shared in previous posts, I very much want to help children with special needs. Even more than that, I don’t want to live a shallow life knowing with faith in Christ I could’ve accomplished so much more.

I wish I could say I’m living fearlessly, but nope…there are still plenty of times I am afraid. I am afraid I won’t be good enough or will be unprepared. I’m wondering if it’s worth the risk—if it is a risk I am willing to take.

Something that God reminds me that helps keep me going is that living in fear is selfish.

I’m going to try and give an example. Let’s just suppose you somehow know in a couple weeks you’re going to be near deep water where people could easily drown if they don’t know how to swim, and you somehow know you are going to be in a situation where you are the only one who can save a child from drowning if you have the skills to do so. Now, suppose you don’t have the skills to yet, but you have the time to learn. Would you be willing to learn so this child has the chance to live? I would hope so. Being afraid to learn to swim, afraid you won’t swim fast enough, afraid of the water—that would be a selfish fear.

A lot of us are living in this selfish fear. We should be doing our best to “learn to swim”. We should be willing to “jump in”, even if we’re not 100% sure our effort will be a success.

So, is this selfish fear keeping you from doing anything for the benefit of others?


1498682497718.jpegA glimmer and light in ripples they flow,
temporary reflections of the person they show,
A mirror, an image, a face they perceive,
Making a man think that he truly believes.
He walks away and forgets what his natural face was,
the Word is not shown in all that he does.
He was a hearer of words, but didn’t take them to heart.
He saw the example but he still took no part.
He has now been deceived, but of his own choice.
He will live for his pleasure, temporarily rejoice.
His happiness will fade as the truth is revealed,
That he has put off for later, and that has been concealed.
The facts of life are often ignored,
it’s our choice now to listen, rather than keep it all stored.
Why wait till the end, and be filled with regret?
When we still have the choice that we haven’t made yet?
Make it now while there’s time, be prepared, watch and pray.
The hour is soon coming, when before us may lay,
The consequences of what we have chosen to be, what could have been erased, we could have been free.
Yes, there are struggles, we may suffer in our choice,
There will be trials and often pains, but even through it we rejoice.
Be glad in the Lord, he has paid for our sin. Examine yourselves. This faith…are you in?

Taste and See that the Lord is Good

IMG_5744I’ve been trying really hard lately to eat healthy. Pretty much living off of smoothies with fruit, veggies, protein, nuts, grains and such. (Maybe I should’ve said drink healthy. 😛) After a couple weeks or so I got used to the change and now I really like them.

Just a few moments ago I was offered some chocolate pudding, (Okay, I know this sounds really random but hold on a minute, I’m going somewhere with this lol) I took one bite and thought something was wrong with it. I looked at the packaging and tried to figure out what was wrong with it—I usually love chocolate pudding! I just plain didn’t like it…it didn’t have the same kind of sweetness as the fruit I’d been having daily.

Now to the point:
It made me think of what we are feeding ourselves and digesting spiritually. We are surrounded by things in this world that we try and satisfy ourselves with, and many times we think we are satisfied even though we’re not because we don’t truly know what it means to be satisfied.

I think many of us haven’t really had enough of a taste of what God has to offer to where we want more of Him and no longer can satisfy ourselves with what the world has to offer. (Like I can no longer satisfy myself with chocolate pudding 🙃) It takes some time to adjust. It takes self-discipline and perseverance, but once we are adjusted it’s like a different lifestyle with different appetites. We no longer want the fake stuff, but rather have a distaste for it.

To truly taste and see that the Lord is good it takes time. We have to watch what we are feeding ourselves and before long we will have more of a desire for God than anything else in this world.

“Take My Life And Let It Be Consecrated Lord To Thee”

Here I am with another song dissection. But hey, if we’re going to sing/say something, it’s good to know what in the world we’re communicating.

Before you dive into this song, I want to warn you—it says a lot and will require some deep thought if you really want to understand it.

“Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee. Take my moments and my days, let them flow in endless praise.”

Wow. Moments, days…entire life? Endless praise? Pretty simple and straightforward, but no small commitment. Let’s not say/sing anything we won’t follow through with. Let’s live it out.

“Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of Thy love. Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful Lord for Thee.”

What does “at the impulse of Thy love” mean? Well if the Holy Spirit is inside us, Christ’s love should also be inside us. If we are following the Holy Spirit’s leading, God will lead us to do things out of His love for others.

In the second part of this verse, the word “swift” stuck out to me. It’s so easy to take our time and put things off, but as we do that we miss so many opportunities to share Christ’s love. So let’s not waste our time but rather be quick to love, forgive, and share.

“Take my voice and let me sing, always, only for my King. Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from Thee.”

Words are such a powerful thing. It’s important we pay attention to what’s coming out of our mouths–what are we communicating?

“Take my silver and my gold, not a mite would I withhold. Take my intellect and use every power as Though shalt choose.”

This is no small commitment either. There should be a dramatic difference between someone who is living this way compared to someone who is not. We all have different gifts. It’s up to us whether we use them for ourselves or for God as He wills.

“Take my will and make it Thine, it shall be no longer mine. Take my heart, it is Thine own, it shall be Thy royal throne.”

Letting our own will go and replacing it with God’s is yet another big commitment. Think about what that really means.

“Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet it’s treasure store. Take myself and I will be ever, only, all for Thee.”

Take the last line of this last verse and it is, in a way, a simple summary of the entire song: giving our entire hearts and lives to our Lord out of love for Him.

Think about this song today. Do you want God to take your life to live for Him?

Fix Our Eyes On You

Only in You do I find hope; in Your arms my heart finds rest.

Where the weary fall and the weak faint I will not go, for Your strength carries on.

You bring healing to the broken and provide peace to those who trust in You; Your faithfulness continues on.

The wicked do not understand Your ways; no, even Your children cannot fully comprehend.

Much of You remains a mystery to all, even as we seek Your face.

Fix our eyes on You, Lord; draw our hearts nearer to Yours.

Let Christ Define You

Many people who know me would define me as “the girl who plays all those instruments” or “paints all those paintings”. I’m working on that. When people look at me, I don’t want them to see me, but Christ in me. I want Christ to define who I am.

I’ve only known a small handful of people who when described to someone that has never met them one of the first things said is something of their relationship with Christ–how they truly love the Lord, serve others with a humble heart, and have a rare kind of joy–people who Christ tangibly defines who they are. Over the years I’ve noticed people with this special kind of trait have become increasingly rare. Why is that?

To put it into one word: Selfishness. The world has become more and more self-centered, self-reliant, greedy, and just plain selfish!

Why the increase? Well, my answer to this is just my opinion from what I’ve observed: We’ve grown. We’ve found so many ways of making life more convenient and comfortable, our overall knowledge has increased, (not to be confused with wisdom) we have invented so many things that cause us to rely on ourselves, and oh, the entertainment…I am blown away at how much people put into their own pleasure. And yet, despite these things, this seems to be just about the most unhappy, unsatisfied generation ever!

We are surrounded by SO MUCH. It used to be just “the grass looks greener on the other side”, but now with the way we can easily drive from state-to-state or get online we can see thousands of “greener hills”. The more that’s available the more we aren’t as easily satisfied and are therefore greedy. We find ways to make providing for ourselves easier, which gives us the idea that we can fully rely on ourselves. We know a lot, but we assume we know more than we really do. We see people who’ve got an easier life than we do, making us think of how hard our life is and making us self-centered. We’ve found things that make us “happy” that have distracted us from knowing what true joy is really like.

I could be wrong, but I believe we have a whole lot more temptation going on with these things than we did just a few generations ago. It is so easy nowadays to have this jealous, self-centered, self-reliant mindset, which is hardly the mind of Christ but quite the opposite.

We don’t have to let the world define us, but it’s no easy task to prevent it. That’s where we are denying ourselves and surrendering to God.

Now, before you say, “I’m not selfish!” look at yourself. Are you living selfishly? When you get on your feet each day are you doing and saying things for your own benefit or for the benefit of others?

It has sadly become quite normal to live selfishly. We are typically living how we feel like it. Occasionally we are helping people when it’s not too terribly inconvenient and we feel like we ought to, but then it ends there.
Let’s not allow this selfish way of living define who we are. Let’s see if we can figure out what it really means to die to ourselves. Let’s break this habit that we’re surrounded by and allow Christ to define who we are.

God’s Seed

Hearts are hardened as stone and you ask why the seed does not grow?
The seed is planted among thorns and you wonder why when sprouted the plants are choked up?
It is no use to plant where the ground is not prepared to receive it;
time is wasted when you plant where nothing will survive to harvest.
Search for ground that has been prepared;
look for land that has not been swallowed up.
Plant where it will be well-tended and fed;
if there is no water and sun it will whither away.
Be sure the roots go deep so that a storm only makes it stronger;
plant among others so that it may bear fruit.
Do not keep the seed to yourselves or hide it away, for if you do when the Master returns it will be taken away.