A Small Voice

This is something I wrote in my teens (probably around 15) that I found on some falling apart notebook paper while going through some old things:

A Small Voice 

I say to myself, “What am I living for? What is my purpose?” Sometimes it seems like everyone else knows what they will do one day while I still ask myself, “What shall I do?”

Sometimes I feel I’m forgotten, in the middle of the billions in this world. “How could I be noticed or remembered? It’s like I’m not even here. How can I make a difference in others lives for the better? Is it possible? Or am I just too small and timid?”

I want to do something for Christ, to glorify His name, not my own. I want to help this lost world, save lives from eternal destruction. It’s like…I have a love for people that I haven’t even met. I want to show them how they can be saved, too.

I am trying to prepare myself to be ready to witness to others. I’m praying for God to fill me with His Holy Spirit so that He can work through me. I know already that I absolutely cannot do it alone. I am nowhere near bold enough. Even if I was, it takes more than boldness. It takes much, much more. It takes a faith that only comes from Christ. It takes a love so great that we are willing to endanger our own lives for the sake of others. It takes a wisdom from the Father to speak through us. It takes the Holy Spirit.
I want to do God’s will in my life—whatever it is. But what is it? What is God’s will for my life? That is a question I’ve wondered many times over the years. Now I must listen for a small voice as He speaks to my heart. Listen, and wait…

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Where Our Eyes Are Set

IMG_6139“Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:1-2‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

It is SO critically important where our eyes are set. Many times we only see what is right before us, whether it be joy or sadness, comfort or pain, healing or brokenness.

While we can’t always choose the here-and-now, it is our choice where we have our eyes set. We are in a fallen world, and there will be negative things in our lives as long as we are here on earth. Jesus Himself, who was far undeserving, lived a life of endurance and sacrifice for our sake and the joy of having us as His own children by His own choice.

If our lives are in His Book of Life as His children running the race with our eyes fixed on Him, we should be laying at His feet every weight–every fear, doubt, sin, sadness, brokenness–and allow it to be replaced with confidence in our faith, hope, restoration, healing, and joy. To do this, we absolutely must continuously remind ourselves that our lives here on earth are only a small, tiny, fraction of our eternal lives with God! When our eyes are fixed outside the boundaries of this world and time it can give us an entirely different mindset, way of thinking, and perspective. It is quite different than having the mind of this world, and SO relieving! It brings a peace that no one but God can give!

Let’s fix our eyes on Jesus and not be caught up in the here-and-now. Let’s run the race with no turning back.


About an hour after sharing this post, God laid this song upon my heart like never before to share with this:

Don’t Fight God

“But…but…why? What about…?”

It’s easy to find ourselves questioning God—what He allows, His motives, and what He desires for us. But we can’t see the big picture. We aren’t outside the boundaries of time. There is a lot we simply don’t know, can’t see, and there’s a good chance we never will see.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with asking questions. What’s easy to miss is that continuously questioning God is fighting Him. Where it becomes a problem is when we don’t receive an answer right away or don’t like the answer, and then refuse to accept it.

Not fighting God doesn’t mean giving up.

One of the most challenging, brave things to do is trust when we don’t understand. We need to choose our battle. There is plenty out in the world to fight against, and it’s very dangerous when what we’re fighting is ourselves or God. When we do that, what we are doing is allowing Satan to control our lives. (Who else would better want us to fight God?)

We need to remember who we are fighting and how. God is our King, but if all we are doing is questioning Him we aren’t allowing Him to reign. He is our Defender, but if we are defending ourselves against Him we are not allowing Him to defend us. He is our Guide, but if we are trying to guide Him we certainly aren’t allowing Him to guide us.

Let’s turn around, face our real enemy, and allow God to be our Victor.

Lower Risk of Alzheimer’s

1497061112944I watched an interesting lecture on Alzheimer’s today (going through a course on understanding the brain) and learned that in addition to a healthy diet and exercise, studies have shown that “working your brain” can greatly lower your risk of getting Alzheimer’s and similar kinds of dementia later in life. Learning shouldn’t stop after high school or college! Your brain needs it, and it can have many benefits. Instead of hours of entertainment, try spending even just half of that time learning. Save some money by watching some DIY videos on fixing your car. Read some books or take classes to find ways to advance in your career. Find something that fascinates you and learn how it works. Learn. It’s good for you. 😉

An interesting article on “neurobics” to improve brain health: http://drjockers.com/using-neurobics-to-improve-your-brain/
#ilovetolearn #notashamed #itsgoodforyou

Battlefield of the Mind

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I’ve just recently finished reading the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. I’ve learned waaaay more from this book than I can say in one article, and I can guarantee: I have more to learn yet.

When I first picked up this book I couldn’t help but laugh because I’m in the process of getting brain surgery for my epilepsy. (Brain..mind? I thought it was funny anyway…) My frequent seizures have kept me pretty down and given me lots of time to think and read, so what better time to go through this book?

I’ve always been quite a thinker, and it can be anything from how something works to worrying about something of little to no importance. From early morning to late at night, my mind constantly wants to stay at work.

One of the first things that caught my attention in this book was to “think about what you’re thinking about”. To some extent I already was, I mean, most everybody’s heard of Philippian’s 4:8, right? (Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.) But, with some careful examining, I realized I was failing miserably…and still have lots to work on.

So, just going to share “a few” lines along with scripture verses that stuck out to me from the book: (I underlined over a hundred things in this book…I’ve never done that in any other book I’ve read other than the Bible)

“Cast all your care upon Him.”

“The proud man worries, the humble man waits.”

“Step one to any freedom is to face the truth the Lord is trying to show us.”

“Our thoughts are silent words that only we and the Lord hear, but those words affect our inner man, our health, our joy, and our attitude.”

“Sadly, very few people know how to live each day to the fullest. But you can be one of them.”

“Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will receive it.” -Mark 4:24

“The Lord may direct us to do a certain thing, but if it does not make sense-if it is not logical-we may be tempted to disregard it.”

“Worry will not help our cause at all. It will, in fact, hinder our progress.”

“Remember, your actions won’t change until your mind does.”

“Make a decision to believe God and not the Devil.”

“Negativism has to go.”

“If we want to do what the Word of God says, we must spend some time thinking about it.”

“Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.”

“The best way to shut the Devil up is to speak the Word.”

“In times of spiritual warfare, we are to tighten the belt of truth around us.”

“Disobedience is disregarding the voice of the Lord, or whatever God is speaking to us personally, not just transgressing the Ten Commandments.”

“If we know in our spirit that a thing is wrong, we should not allow reasoning to talk us into doing it. Also, if we know something is right we must not allow reasoning to talk us out of doing it.”

“It is difficult for human beings to give up reasoning and simply trust God, but once the process is accomplished, the mind enters a place of rest.”

“Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.” -Proverbs 3:5

“If you only do what is easy, you will always remain weak.”

Okay…I better stop…these are just a few of my favorites. I highly recommend the book. And remember: spiritual warfare is a CONTINUOUS battle. I know I will be going through this book regularly…probably for the rest of my life…I know I will be giving away several copies. Give it a read and may God use it for good in your life as He has in mine!

Life without God’s love is like a donut.(:

I still remember watching the “Donut Man” when I was young. It was so simple, yet so true! Without God’s love there will be an emptiness in your heart that no human or thing in all of God’s creation can fill. Nothing and no-one but God himself.
I love it when some of the most amazing things are put so simply, anyone can understand it! When Jesus taught, it was so simple as long as you had the mind of Christ in you! Sometimes we just have to seek God as we try and understand His Word with a humble heart, and meditate on it, and He will reveal it to us and give us a clear understanding of the meaning in a way that we can see how to apply our lives to the Truth of His Word.
I’m constantly reminded of this when one of my younger brothers or sisters ask simply, “What does that mean?” or, “What do I do now?” or “How do I do that?”
If you had a child who didn’t know how to do something, wouldn’t it be rather foolish for them to attempt to do it on their own, without asking for help and direction? Wouldn’t it be foolish for a child to try and drive a vehicle, when they are obviously not old enough, responsible, and haven’t had the guidance and the example before them?
Come to Christ as a child, humble and searching for love, teaching, example, guidance, wisdom and understanding that only comes from Christ!

March 13th, 2011

Today, in the craziness of life…

…What I’ve been thinking about.(:

Don’t try and apply God’s Word to your life, but rather apply your life to God’s Word.
We tend to try and fit God’s Word to our life in a way that is pleasing to us, instead of living as a part of Christ’s body and adjusting our lives accordingly.
Who are we living for? Can we live two different lives? Can we rightfully live for ourselves, even if it’s only for a small amount of time, if we have truly given our life to another? Judge for yourself whether you are in the faith.
How Jesus lived and walked on this earth was with a servants heart with love and truth. Does that mean He never said anything that hurt anybody’s feelings? Does that mean he was never honest and truthful if there was the possibility someone might be offended? Certainly not!

Yes, He shared the truth; but how did he share it? Out of love and example. He lived what he spoke. There are so many hypocrites today! Speaking, reading, and teaching Christ, but not living for Him! We are not saved by our works, but faith without works is dead. Read James chapter 2. It is a one of the great examples of how we should be living out the faith.

Remember you cannot live in faith when you don’t know what in the world you have faith in!! Study God’s word. Pray. Seek God with all your heart, mind, and strength.

Follow the example and BE the example.